Today I took a step back into the past.  I was teaching the Montessoi kids gym today.  I forgot just exactly how obnoxious and incredibly loud they are.  I also forgot how even though they annoy the crap out of me, I really do like the majority of them.  They aren't bad kids, just aggravating when you have to deal with a dozen or so of them at the same time.  I haven't seen these kids for a about a year, they've all grown.  It really is amazing to watch puberty hit.  I noticed that some of the boys voices are starting to change, and some of the girls have gained some.... puberty weight.  You gotta love that awkward age.

I noticed that it would be really easy for me to slip back into my old job, almost as if the last year hadn't happened.  I feel competent and secure as the gym teacher.  There's no challenge anymore.  There's nothing new to learn from the position.  I'm good at it, and there's nothing wrong with that.  I miss the challenge.  I don't think it's a bad thing to feel comfortable in your job, but only if it's a career.  If it's a job... something needs to change.  I need to push myself, and I need to decide what course my professional life is going to take.  It's a hard decision to make, but it's got to be done.

My oh my, it has been a while since I've written in my blog hasn't it?  My normal excuse is that nothing is happening, so I have nothing to write.  My excuse this time is somewhat different.

On April 2nd, I was informed that my office was restructuring and that my position was no longer going to be required, as is.  I was told they were looking to hire an experienced book keeper rather than an overall receptionist.  They had been training me in Quickbooks recently, but from what I was told they needed someone who could take daily control of the finances.  Apparently, paying the bills and entering received bills doesn't quite count.  It's okay, maybe it was time to move on anyway.

My life is in a sort of flux at the moment.  I know what skills I possess, I'm just not sure how best to put them to use.  I can be a good administrative assistant.  I have the skills for the job and I do not mind doing the work.  What I'd love to do is find an administrative position in a.... different environment.  My previous position was in New York's Diamond District.  While I have no problem with the district, my company was so small that a lot of the time I was in the office alone.  Again, this wouldn't really have been a problem if my computer had speakers.  There's something very depressing about sitting in an office for up to nine hours alone, in silence.

Ideally, I would love to find a job in the field of publishing, even an administrative job.  Publishing encompasses so many fields, including the two I am most passionate about: children's literature and photography.  It's also a tremendously hard field to break into, as I'm finding out.  I won't give up though.  I know I'm meant to be in the publishing field somehow, some way.